Last night was a frustrating night. I took off early from work to take E'llee swimming. We had a good time but afterwards she wanted to go to the park. I thought Etta was going to be there at 5 so I figured I would go home and get ready for a ride. Etta didn't show up until 5:30 and E'llee was pretty needy and demanding so I spent my time meeting E'llee's demands and not getting ready for a ride and trying to watch the TT from the tour.
When they arrived, things went smoothly and I got ready for my ride. I swapped out my pedals, put new tubes on both wheels and checked the tires for glass. Got my stuff ready and finally got out for a ride.
About 7 miles in I got a flat. I had scrounged to find the 1 canister of Co2 I could find and accidentally blew off about half the cartridge and could not limp home on that little in the tire without damaging the rim. So I called Cate for an emergency ride or pump. It felt like the tire was still not holding air so I decided to give up the ghost and just go home.
Cate and Hannah had been at Shirley's purse party but decided that they would go to Macy's and look at purses there as the purses at the party were over priced. So they dropped me off and went off to shop. I took my shower and made myself some nachos. I made less than what I would usually make at first but then ended up making another batch. not because I was hungry or even particularly enjoying them. I was filling the feeling. I was disappointed, frustrated, and wanted to just relax and do what I wanted. So if this is what I could do then that is what I was going to do.
So needless to say I wasn't happy with the fact that I over ate. However, I am happy that I know exactly why I overate. So now the do over. What to do instead?
I think instead I need to change my perspective on the whole situation. I looked at what I didn't have or couldn't do instead of what I did get from the situation.
- I got to take E'llee swimming
- I got to spend time with E'llee enjoying her energy while waiting for etta
- I am blessed to have Etta in my and E'llee's life and that she is so dedicated to being a part of E'llee's life
- I did get to watch most of the tour
- I have a partner who will come rescue me whenever I need it
I was focussing on the things I didn't have and the limited time I had. I will change my frame of reference next time and look at the abundance of things I have. not at the limitations.
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